It has been a while since I have been on here. I have been so damn stressed. Mainly because of my dad's stupid bitch of a wife. I hate his new wife. She always talks down to me like I am a fucking idiot. She is always making me do all of these nasty chores for her that she doesn't want to do herself. She was trying to get me to get rid of my dog. I won't, so now she is forcing me to move out. I hate this so much. He was my dad before he was her wife. This isn't fair. I am in tears right now. I can't believe I have to leave now. I feel like such shit. I am not even human I am just a pile of shit. I don't know what to do.

I seen this on someone else's profile and well I am a survey whore. So here it goes....

I AM -
[ ] anorexic
[x] ednos
[ ] bulimic 
 
[ ] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry 

[ ] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[ ] starving myself
[x] participating in a fast 




PEOPLE - 

[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat 

[ ] say I’m skinny 
[ ] say I’m ugly 

[ ] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more 

[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic 




I WISH -
[x] I was THIN 

[x] I had a better body 

[ ] I didn't have to eat 

[x] I could control myself 

[ ] I was under 110lbs 

[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia



I LOVE -
[ ] feeling hungry
[ ] seeing a difference when fasting
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself 



APPEARANCE-
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. 

[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily. 

[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. 

[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles. 



FAMILY-
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home. 

[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together. 

[x] I have a sibling less than one year old. 

[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

EMBARRASSMENT-
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. 

[x] Disney movies still make me cry. 

[ ] I've peed from laughing. 

[ ] I've snorted while laughing. 

[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my trousers rip in public.

RELATIONSHIPS-
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. 

[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've been cheated on.
[x] I've been the other women.
[ ] I've gotten divorced 

[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. 

[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. 

[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. 

[x] I've kept something from a past relationship. 



SEXUALITY-

[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher. 

[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY-
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. 

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've been suspended from school. 



BAD TIMES-
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink. 

[ ] I can't swallow pills. 

[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. 

[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I've been clinically diagnosed with an eating disorder.
[x] I have an eating disorder. 

[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose. 

[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying 


[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me. 



[ ] I'm at my thinnest
[ ] I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[x] I weigh myself daily 


[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[ ] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spit food out 

[x] I've fasted
[x] I've taken diet pills
[x] I've used laxatives 

[x] I've purged 


[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly 

[x] I work out daily 

[x] I exercise to counteract eating 

[ ] I've fainted from exhaustion 



I'VE DONE-
[x] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[x] Diet pills
[ ] Pain killers
[x] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy 

[ ] LSD 

[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed 

[ ] Cocaine 

[x] Other

[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have a ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[ ] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[x] I count calories
[x] I've had negative intake days 

[x] I avoid food 

[x] I hate food
[x] I love food
[ ] I want to be this way
[x] I don't want to be like this 

[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[ ] I don't want to get better
[ ] I am in treatment
[ ] I've been to treatment
[ ] I'm doing this for me
[x] I'm doing this for someone
[ ] I'm doing this to prove myself

My caloric intake today was about 1000. A lot, but I have exercised a whole whole bunch today. I have been doing lawn work all day. Major calories burned in the process. Anyways, I have a potluck to go to tomorrow. So I have been cooking for that. And well I have to taste test to make sure the food I cooked doesn't suck. All of the little bites here and there add up. Well that is about all I have to update about.